Oops

Life is good....when life is good I eat, when life is not good I eat!! This past week has been cray busy. The baby has had appointments, all 5 dogs had to be groomed this week, Bea had the dentist and I had to fit in taking the baby to his visits as well!. I missed a proper lunch about 5 times and we had takeaway fast food twice this week, which is unheard of for me. We also only had a proper dinner ,maybe, 4 times.

I know, I know, that is no excuse for not eating properly. I like to eat something that is easy to prepare and quick to eat so for me that means biscuits, cold meat, yoghurts and that kind of thing...oh and baking chocolate ( the stuff in big blocks from Walmart..$3 each and quite nice in an emergency) Come on girls I know you have done it too!!!!

I weighed 293.2 this morning so I am back where I started 2 weeks ago. This is totally normal for my dieting life. I have lost weight on WW and I have lost weight at Curves. I also have done the Cambridge Diet, the Atkins Diet, and any other diet you can mention. It is always easy to lose the weight but never easy to keep it off.

I feel that, why should I try to lose weight?. I have a husband who loves me to bits, a home, a lovely career as a foster parent and I am still able to get about and do what I want to do. I do have some health issues, mainly a back problem from 20 years ago when I started nursing, but I cope.

I saw a news article today that said if you have low self esteem then you shouldn't visit Facebook as moaning makes your friends miserable and then they unfriend you!!! Tell me something I didn't know. I left Facebook for a while, and then came back so that I could keep tabs on Ben out in Grande Prairie, but now I am having serious doubts about staying as the posts are boring, moaning or God bothering!! We shall see.!

Okay, enough for now. I think I have finished moaning and so we shall see how many people unfriend me due to my low self-esteem!!! But seriously , how many people take offence when, after posting something on Facebook, nobody comments? More than would care to admit it I bet...

Okay, now that really is enough before I offend the whole of the universe!

Cheerio

Enough

Okay, enough mucking about. I realised this morning that I have been on a diet for 33 of my 44 years here on this earth. I have lost the same weight time and time again.
I first went to WW at age 11 and lost 28lbs . You would think that I would have learned my lesson in humiliation and kept to a "normal" weight for my age, but no.

I was thinking, as I am wont to do every so often, that if you have to be addicted to something then food is THE worst thing. If you have a problem with alcohol, tobacco, weed, heroin or even sex then you can get clean, sober or whatever and never have those things in your life again. Not so with food. Everyone has to eat, to survive, to live so banishment is not an option. Unless you want to live on Ensure or Boost and never buy solid food again. ( hey,thats a thought!) but I don't think the family would like that idea.

Yesterday I weighed 292.6lbs, a gain of 1.4lbs this week. See I knew it couldn't last. One week I did it for, one lousy stinking week! This is normally where I would give up and drown myself in Cadbury's and Ben and Jerry's but not this time ( cue piano music and drums rising to a rousing crescendo, crashing waves etc etc) I am going to follow my never fail diet plan, that obviously does fail if not followed.

I have the books, I have the knowledge and I can rebuild my shattered self-esteem in time for.....whenever. There is no time scale, no event or appointment that I have to get thin for, I know, I lead a very sheltered life!

I think that is all for today but I had to get my thoughts down on the blog while they were still fresh in my mind and in black and white for all to see. Amazing what goes through one's head at 2 in the morning whilst feeding the baby!

Stay tuned for more rambled musings soon...

Halfway thru week two

This is a mid week update.....as I haven't been keeping a record. I now weigh 291.2lbs so I have stayed the same which is great.
Life is busy and fun at the moment. Foster son is hard work and so is bio family! I am not thinking about food as much and I am taking 2000mg of Omega 3 as it is said to raise the metabolism by boosting the thyroid gland....we shall see. I am also taking Green tea Capsules daily to do the same thing. I need a lot of water in the morning to take the pills as they are like horse pills!!!

Exercise is still non-existent although I do go for walks sometimes! Running up and down stairs is sometimes exercise enough or so I keep telling myself.
I will try and update again on Tuesday and , hopefully, post a weight loss for the week.

Week 2

As I sit here eating a home made granola bar....absolutely yummy, I weigh 290.6lbs so down again. This weight loss lark is so easy, NOT. I have done this before, got complacent and forgotten to be sensible in food choices and exercise, hah exercise not got there yet, don't know if I will....back issues don't you know!

Week 1 weight loss

Well, the time has come, my friends, to talk of many things....but mainly my weight!!!!
I am currently sitting at 291.2lbs which is a LOSS of 2lbs!!!!


That is all.

Penultimte day of week 1

I am 291.8lbs today....I feel should have a string wound round my neck as I have been up and down so much!! Okay for those who are pondering my last remark....YoYo dieting (gettit?)

Tomorrow is the weeks weigh in and I shall see how I have done. On a traditional diet I woul
d lose 5-8lbs in the week but then be depressed when I only lost 1-2 the next week. This way I should lose 1-2 weekly and it wll be yucky fat and not water (I hope)

My week has been okay, diet wise, still a long way to go until I can trust myself in a room filled with Boston Cream Donuts or Cadbury Buttons! I am feeling positive because I know what my weaknesses are and what my strengths are or at least I hope I do. I am strong mentally,I am hard working, I am loving,patient and kind.I have a wacky sense of humour and can be reduced to tears over cruelty to anmals and children.

I do have a weakness for good chocolate, oh who am kidding, any chocolate! Especially if combined with a Lord of the Rings or Destination Truth marathon. Aragorn and Josh Gates are another two of my weaknesses!! Fortunately I have a wonderful husband who doesn't mnd a bit as he has a little crush on Arwen!!

So tomorrow I will either be cheering or crying into my tea ( dash of milk, no sugar ) and will ,of course, lay it all bare here for your delictation...so to speak!!

Day 6

Okay, today's weight is 292.6lbs so up a little on yesterday but still down overall! Sunday lunch of roast pork, fresh veggies and spuds. I will try and ease of on the roasties but who can tell what primevil urge will come over me when sitting at the table?
Had a lovely day with Dontay yesterday and ate tempura chicken for the first time ( I know I know I have led a very sheltered life!)
This week has been an eye opener for me as I have seen what has been going in my mouth and what effects it has had on my body......
Maybe next week will be better, we shall see.